Hello 2010.

I used to lay on the sides of highways and watch the cars blur by me.
Laying in the in-between. Just observing.

There was a certain point I realized that life moves just as fast as the movie montages.
That flashes of moments standing by those you love are exactly what they seem. Short bursts of beauty.

A great sadness overcomes me when I drive those same highways I used to walk. Sometimes seeing my former self, for just a split second. Waving to me from oblivion.

I'm moving much faster now than I ever could have imagined then, and yet somehow I long for the never-ending summer days.

I long for the days where I used to be able to willfully love someone or something unconditionally. I long for fruit flavored popsicles and long walks along glass-ridden shores. I miss not being afraid of anything, and not constantly thinking my friends deserve better.

The great stretches of asphalt and street lamps, are my past-self's safe haven. And while I may visit him sometimes, I know that I'm someone else now.

My family is all there now. Much younger, all smiling. Waving to me, for just a split second. I'm sorry that life...

The only excuse I can whisper in their direction. I'm sorry that life had to be this way. That I'll never be what you needed, that you're all equipped with the same devices to feel as I am.

But it does and it is.

Hello, 2010.